Susah tapi positif.

memang susah, tapi aku tahu Allah takkan tunjukkan sekaligus. slow2, janji istiqamah. sebab Tuhan tu kenal hamba dia macam mana. tu sebab dia bagi ujian yang serupa macam tu. kau sabar je, kayuh perlahan2. Ada niat, Allah bantu. sampai ke akhirnya, kau kena kuat sekuat kuatnya.

Suffer.

Pain is real and it exists. The reality of struggle is strong enough and so I suffer in silence. To cope with my own mind, my old sin, my old memory, my darkness . . . are very hard and dreadful. The steep in my life, the dismay of my heart, the violent toward myself and all the black memories that I get through . . . make me want to rise up become the self that I proud of. I scrutinize things happens in my life, I noticed many kinds of problems I face and somehow I can't think properly whether it is right to do or wrong. And sometimes, I fall into the deep of darkness. There is when everything happens at once, and I regret badly. I exasperate toward my old self when I recall back, what I had been doing all those years. Just one word, Worst. A portent from the one that I love the most, I listen, I take what I should take, but I started to forget it easily and . . . ignored. That portent is the likelihood of something bad will happen. And it happened. Hauling ...

o-p-i-n-i-o-n

tak semua apa yang kau kata tu betul dan tak semua apa yang aku kata ni betul. sebab ianya hanyalah pendapat, bukan fakta. kalau fakta, memang tak boleh disangkal lagi, kan ? "aku rasa aku tak setuju dengan sekian sekian. sebab bagi aku, bende ni memburukkan lagi keadaan. seumpama ditambah secukup rasa untuk jadikan lagi sedap berperisa. bagi sesetengah orang, oh bende ni okay je, takde masalah. bagi orang lain pulak, it getting worse. dah la dia tu dengan perangai macam tu lagi, kau rasa dia akan okay ke kalau kau buat camtu ?" tu contoh. setiap orang ada pendapat lain2 yang kadang2 kita rasa tak masuk akal pun dan susah nak diterima dek akal yg tak bijak sangat ni. kita bagi pendapat, dia bagi pendapat. kita ada pilihan sama ada nak terima atau tak. macam tu jugak dia. oh ye, dan kita jugak takde hak untuk kata dia punya opinion adalah salah dan kita punya betul belaka. kita ni hebat sangat ke nak kata macam tu ? tu sebab Allah cipta kita ni lain2,tahap pemikiran pu...

Progress

i make a little progress, although it is very very hard. like crazy majnun hard u know. u can feeeeeel this thing when u want to be better than your old self. well, it's hard but if u want.... u WILL achieve it no matter what. u dont want, then u dont get. u keep giving excuse, then u lose it. u keep lazy, then all your life will be very lazy haha. u go through it all because Allah is all u want.

Someday Today . . .

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